So yesterday was an odd day. I was determined to have a positive and productive day. I sort of did okay with that. Then came dinner time, there wasn’t much in the fridge and I had to finish something for work - no one wanted to go to the store and Dylan wasn’t feeling well and I had promised the boys we were going to watch the new movie we got (Mr. Magorium’s Wonder Emporium … which was very good by the way!) So I dug through the drawer and found the takeout menus and took Brian the phone and told him to order pizza for the kids.

We don’t usually order pizza, it’s too darn crazy expensive anymore. Usually for pizza night we go to the store and get the stuff to let the kids make their own pizzas, or they pick out the little single frozen ones. Both options are a lot less expensive and definitely less greasy than a lot of the delivery places around here. And now I remember that other reason we don’t get delivery, ugh my stomach feels awful this morning after eating pizza last night.

Then there’s that pesky thing where I am trying to put better food in my mouth and lose some weight. Instead I seem to be gaining weight. Sure I could pop some weight loss pills, I did quite well when I took phentermine for a month before we went to Disney way back forever ago, and then there are over the counter weight loss products like Cortislim, Curvelle, and even the new Alli product. Although I can’t take Alli, I read horror stories about what happens if you take that and you have no gallbladder, which I don’t. Little tidbit they left out of the commercials there. Anyhow, the point is I really don’t want to take those things. I do however still think I’ve got a thyroid problem going on, and thyroid medication would probably be helpful. Drastic weight fluctuations up and down all the time are making me crazy …. my weight changes like the weather lately up, up down, up, up, down, up, down, up, up. Unfortunately there are more ups than downs. I am tired of being in this fat body, I want my body back now please.

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